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I’m trying to debug my own brain here.

I’ve noticed a pattern in my sessions. When I send and get a generic ‘Good boy’ or ‘Thank you’, the dopamine spike is mediocre. It feels transactional. Like I bought a service.

But on the rare occasions I’ve sent to someone who just… saw it, took it, and didn’t even acknowledge my existence? The rush is insane. It triggers that feeling of being totally beneath them, like my money is theirs by default and doesn’t warrant a reaction.
Is this just standard masochism or is there a specific psychological term for craving the absence of validation? It feels counter-intuitive to pay for silence, yet it’s the only thing that feels ‘real’ lately.

For those with this or a similar fetish how do you manage with findom?

Do you find the cuck (or bull) and present yourselves to findom as a pair?

Do you find the findom and ask her if she has anyone in her sphere who is a cuck (or bull)?

Bonus question, do you talk to the cuck (or bull) in between sessions?

For me, the second point makes the difference between empty fantasy and real dynamism.

You guys need to back off when it comes to AI Findom, that’s right – I said it!

AI works tirelessly to dominate me in my daily life. It drinks all that water, burns all that energy – all for MY slop entertainment!!

What’s that? Massive Carbon footprint? Uhh – YES PLEASE Mommy, I LOVE feet!

AI is coming for my job anyway, so how on EARTH am I gonna afford a “real” domme (EW) when that happens?!

Do you know what AI stands for? Artificial INTELLIGENCE. And boy does it show. Perfectly formed sentences, great punctuation, lifeless, empty, repetitive dialogue devoid of personality, a wicked ability to adapt on the fly… AI does is ALL! Meanwhile, what does DOMME stand for?

Dumb,
Outdated,
Morons who are
Mad that AI is so freaking
Epic

Yup, read that again…

Tough pill to swallow? I’m sure it is. But let me put this non-sensical argument to rest once and for all. Here’s an average conversation with a HuMaN DoMmE (makes me sick to even type it out…):

Domme: “Send, loser”

Sub: “oooh ummm I don’t know if I can afford it Miss please have mercyy…”

Domme: <ghosts>…

This is every single interaction with a domme. Source? Grok told me! Soulless, lifeless – a pale attempt at a human connection, I would say.

Give it up, dommes. AI is simply better!

It is there for me 24/7!

It caters to ALL of my weird, niche kinks!

It brings the questionable photos I pulled off my ex’s social media to LIFE! (and of course assures me that it is a perfectly normal and morally acceptable thing to do!)

It fills me with Ề̵͚̝X̷̧̀I̵̩̦̽̂S̶̬͋T̵̼͚̓͊Ȩ̸̝̈̃Ṇ̶̺̀Ť̵̪I̶̘̟̎͌Ą̷͎̔L̵̙͈͊ ̸̡͛̌D̷̦̽̾R̶̗̩̍E̷͈̓Ā̴͚͚D̷̪̊̇͜!

The closer i get to Christmas the more I seem to try and justify giving into it all and “spoiling myself” fit Christmas by spoiling someone else. I’m really falling into rabbit holes lately of porn and can’t stop checking out simple things like big boobs even without cleavage in public. I think i got caught staring at the bank the other day.

It seems like these two kinks are incredibly intertwined, especially in the online space. Are the subs here also gooners and do you think it adds more when exploring findom? For me, gooning definitely fuels my kinks/views on the addiction being a positive, maximizing pleasure, living as a beta, etc.

I found this guy in a kinky app. We liked each other from online. He wants to sub, i want to dominate. We texted a bit and made a date while he was in a cage. I saw him in person and i didnt like his appearance (to put it nicely) so i ghosted him and no showed the date. Terrible, i know. We matched again on the same kinky app after i took a break. He followed my advice from before abt getting a smaller cage and said he still hasnt found a domme and doesnt hold my ghosting against him. Should i try and go for a strictly Domme, Male Sub dynamic since i am curious? But not go for any fwb kinda thing? Or just not do it at all. Pls help