I’ve spent over 50% of my entire life savings on this kink.

Gonna have to fucking…hide my post and comment history after this one…

I’ve been sick of findom for awhile. But I’m addicted, well and truly addicted.

And I decided, in the midst of another shitty relapse. I said fuck it. I’m counting. I’m counting eveey goddamn penny I’ve sent in the name of this shitty kink.

I couldn’t count everything. I started in 2023 and my banks statements only go to the start of 2024.

But I can tell you this much. Between January 2024, and December 2025. I, through findom on Throne, Paypal, OnlyFans, Steam, Amazon and conversion fees. Spent £16,882.37

That is. Unironically. Over 50% of my entire life savings as a 23 year old.

I need to fucking quit… I need to make a time machine and not fucking start I just-…

where do you even fucking go from here?