BadGirlAddict | Julia

First of all, I will be referring to BadGirlAddict as either BGA or Julia in this post. I will also be referring to the person at She/Her or They/Them.
I will most likely admit some controversial truths, as well as show a hell of a lot of vulnerability. I am fully aware that this person is a man pretending to be a woman. I do absolutely not trust them anymore, and I never will.
Again, I am sorry if I ever hurt anyone, or contributed to someone being hurt by BGA.
Here goes!

It all started when I made a post in FindomIntelligentSubs about 5 months ago.
BGA commented on it, and then on a few other posts as well. We struck up a conversation in private, and because they claimed not to want to engage in kink with me, I accepted their refusal to age verify.
As most people know, this person claimed to be a 40’something lesbian named Julia.
She told me all about her little “cult”, and how she was mentoring Dommes who had potential.
The gift, the power, the gene. That’s what she called it. And she ofc claimed I had it, more than anyone she had ever come across. She even said that she didn’t think she could “teach” me anything, because I was too good for that.
You know what I like? I like flattery. I like worship. And Julia was giving me all of it. So she had me hooked after a short time of messaging back and forth.
We kept this up for a while – I’m honestly not sure how long. 2 weeks? 3 weeks? A month maybe?
She would ofc feed me all of the lies she told everyone else. And holy shit, were there many.

(I modeled for a summer when I was 17 in the 90s, before I started university early because I was a child genius.)
(I have a partner named Lisa who is also a FinDomme. She was a supermodel I met in Milan when I was a young model myself.)
(I got my PhD at a very young age because I am hyper intelligent.)
(I am extremely wealthy. So wealthy that I don’t have to work. My wealth comes from my family.)

This is a few of them, but there were so many more.
At this point, I was starting to figure out that half of what Julia was saying, was complete bullshit.
But I liked being a part of her empire. Not as a student, not as a sub. But someone equal to her – or maybe even slightly superior.
Because she would keep telling me how beautiful, powerful and amazing I was. That she had a crush on me. That she was telling all her subs about me, and that I made her feel things she hadn’t felt for anyone else but Lisa in a very long time.
I took on a sub. When she claimed that he was one of her followers, I asked him about it. He sent me screenshots of his conversation with her, and it was clear that he was telling the truth, not Julia.
This caused me to put distance between me and Julia, because it became clear to me that she was trying to manipulate me.

Months went by. I’m not exactly sure how long. 2 months? 3 months? Something like that.
I made the mistake of reaching out to BGA again, fully aware that she was not being truthful about who she really was, but I was bored and enough time had gone by that I figured it was fine. Stupid reasoning, I know. I fully own that.

She was happy to talk to me again, and we jumped right in like we hadn’t taken time apart.
I did not feed into anything she said at first, and I kept trying to change the subject whenever she told one of her lies.
She had new subs.

Drifter (Mlmldrifter) and Aurora (auroraborealis369) were the subs closest to her. I started talking to them. I wanted to figure out how loyal they were, or if maybe I could bring up my doubts about her to them, but I honestly chickened out and said nothing.
The thing with BadGirlAddict is.. Yes, they’re completely off the rails, but they actually were good at gathering subs and make them do what BGA wanted.
And at this point, my doubts were just that – doubts. I wasn’t 100% sure that everything they said was a lie. And I felt a connection with this person.
What if some of it was true, and I would go poking around? Maybe their subs would report back to them, and it would ruin what we had?
I wanted their friendship, and I was afraid of losing it, if I made the wrong move.
I was.. fuck. I was addicted to the adoration and worship they showed me. I wasn’t prepared to lose that, along with the friendship.
I know how fucked up that sounds. That I was willing to look past the compulsive lying, because this person made me feel good about myself..
So that’s what I did. I ignored it, and I kept being their friend.

Then Athena (GodessAthena) found the subreddit JuliasDevils. I’m actually unsure whether it was because of me that she found it.
Anyway, she started posting in the subreddit, and I knew she was talking to Julia.
I started a friendship with Athena, but it very quickly became apparent that she too was charmed by Julia. And once again, I was too big of a chicken to talk to anyone about my doubts.
And then it happened. Julia submitted to Athena.
Holy fuck, was that painful. I had playfully hinted that I had wanted Julia to submit to me, but she never did. And now someone else came and threatened my place at Julia’s side.
And what did I do? I fucking stayed. I worked through my emotions, and I accepted it. We became a powerful little triad (Isn’t that ironic?) And it was so much fun. Jesus christ.

And then came the post we’ve all read. And I realized my mistake. My stupidity. My instinct was right from the beginning, BadGirlAddict was not who they claimed to be. But boy, was I not prepared for the fucking truth.
I’ve honestly been in shock ever since. I’ve barely been able to sleep.
I’ve talked to Athena about it, who’s in even more of a shock than I am.
I’ve talked to Aurora. He is equally disgusted with all this.
I’ve talked to Drifter. He too, is affected ofc.

And now here’s a truth that is extremely hard to admit publicly..
I miss Julia. I miss the person I thought was my friend. And I’m grieving that loss now.
I’m angry, I’m disgusted, I’m ashamed, I’m shocked. But I’m also in pain. And it is really difficult to deal with that pain. You know what helps? The support I’ve gotten from everyone in this community.

Thank you! You have no idea how much it means.

TL:DR: Nah. You’ve gotta read it all for it to make sense.

To Julia.

I know you’re here. I know you’re reading all of this. But know this. It’s over for you. There’s no way back for you. Leave. Nobody wants you here.. And sincerely, fuck you.