I Wasted my life to Serve my Ex

so it’s interesting because guys tell me you all the time that they’re so jealous of me because I have an in real life fandom experience with a girl that I used to date and that dynamic is really very strong and interesting but at the same time they don’t quite understand how revealing it is. And the reason that I say that is because people don’t understand that there is nothing to hide from a girl that I already dated there is no way to hide anything from a girl that I already dated so with that being said, I don’t really have a choice when she wants something done because she dated me before I was herself there’s really no excuse her way to hide. if she wants something done then it happens. It’s a level of commitment that most men aren’t quite ready for but yet I find them yearning for it over and over again, especially the DM me asking for it and I have nothing to do with it.

how are you serve has everything to do with it meaning if you serve like crap and then you ghost or you serve badly and then you ghost then it will do no good. If you have a biological need to be owned in your sub, then you should be doing everything you can to be owned and be a sub you shouldn’t be worried about all this than the third is she gonna do what I want because it doesn’t matter what you want.

Anyway, I’ll get off my soapbox and tell my story for today but yeah we just kicked off 2026 and she allowed me to finish 2025 by finishing in her sports bra and it was one of the hottest experiences that I’ve ever had in my entire life honestly and it is just to a point now where I have known her for so long that she doesn’t even really show me nudity anymore. I’m just basically a bitch for whatever she shows me and that may be like a bra strap. It may be like a panty line. It made me like whatever, but it almost never will be nudity again and I think that she kind of relishes in that because I’m not like a normal sub like I’m hooked because I’ve been with her and I dated her so I know exactly what I’m missing out on personally and it makes it that much more bittersweet and if you ask me that bittersweet feeling of knowing what you’re missing auto into that level and that degree is what makes it that much more addictive.

So there’s really no way that I get through any of this with a wife or a girlfriend or anything like that because right now my ex completely controls my life I mean, she basically controls when I’m not when I don’t what I said how much money I keep and it keeps me completely addicted and it’s just just enough to string me along and it’s just it’s almost embarrassing. How easily manipulated I am for her, but she’s just so good at it. It’s sad for me because she is so good at controlling people. She’s been doing it all her life she’s had eyes at her feet. She’s always been attractive so it’s one of those things that you just can’t get over at least for me anyways she has perfect boobs perfect butt addictive smile.

I’ll try to post some more stories. I was posting stories that of things that happened between us for a while there and I kind of fell off track because I was sending her money and then I got into doing some overtime to make more money for her, but I will start trying to post more frequent and better stories soon.