I likely had the wrong idea about this

So I’ve been through this all and had an idea in my head about what its all supposed to be like. I’m not sure if it’s changed but now everything feels so loose and modern and fast. A session goes by kinda quick and I’m realizing that it could be that what findom is now just isn’t for me and really I need femdom in a different way. The fantasy of it all always brings me back but maybe I’m at a point where I need to focus my fantasies somewhere I fit in better.