Had a close call today

I used to indulge in femdom in general along with findom. I did this in a pro domme group who not explicitly mention findom but I’ve tipped as much as a session before and I used to even pay for many other things I won’t go into. Today it was close. I nearly booked a session and wanted to tip afterwards. I didn’t do either and resisted at the last minute. In the past it’s around this point that I normally relapse hard. The last time I was drained a lot.

It’s times like these when I remember what my therapist told me about self love. That I shouldn’t hate myself. At least I didn’t fail. At least I’m keeping it up. It’s hard. Not every day is easy. If you’re on the journey like me, good luck to you. I know how it feels. Keep going. Keep pushing.