Does the “silence” hit harder than the “thank you” for anyone else?

I’m trying to debug my own brain here.

I’ve noticed a pattern in my sessions. When I send and get a generic ‘Good boy’ or ‘Thank you’, the dopamine spike is mediocre. It feels transactional. Like I bought a service.

But on the rare occasions I’ve sent to someone who just… saw it, took it, and didn’t even acknowledge my existence? The rush is insane. It triggers that feeling of being totally beneath them, like my money is theirs by default and doesn’t warrant a reaction.
Is this just standard masochism or is there a specific psychological term for craving the absence of validation? It feels counter-intuitive to pay for silence, yet it’s the only thing that feels ‘real’ lately.