Found that one that really filled that fantasy and now I’m hooked again

Hey so I’ve always figured theoretically this was a way to blow off steam and so I’ve held the idea of it as a fantasy as untrue. Then I met a domme who changed the idea for me. She was perfect for me in every way. It was like she was in my head. She started with sfw pictures and I played along not expecting much. Then she turned really dirty and used her body to control me in ways I didn’t expect. I did things I haven’t ever done and felt excitement I’ve never had with kinks before. She taught me a lot! She disappeared and she’s offline completely. Now I’m stuck needing. I sent her a Christmas present and I guess that’s the last we will communicate. I’m going to try and take Christmas to cool down now