Interested in trying more extreme forms of findom

I’m still very new to this stuff but honestly the kind of soft/vanilla domme experiences that newer subs tend to be guided to are not as interesting to me as some of the more mean spirited or unethical forms of domination I keep seeing. Originally I was looking for a bossy sugar baby, but after a couple weeks in findom spaces I have to be honest and admit I’m really keen to try out stuff like cuckolding, blackmail, intense humiliation and psychological sadism, and so much more. I’m just feeling held back by the idea that this stuff isn’t a good idea for newer submissives. Do you think I could start these things anyway? It’s all just play, after all.