Spiraling and cant stop sending: here is my story i am seeking advice please help me

I sent again. Another 100 dollars and will prob send more tonight. I am 22 have so much going for me but I can’t stop spending money on findom. I have already spent over 36k on this addiction. It would be one thing if it’s fun and enjoyable but it’s not, it’s socially isolating. I have no friends. none. I don’t speak to people my own age not men or woman unless it online and the vast majority of the time it involves money. I have payed for dommes, girlfriend experiences, cam girls – everything. This social isolation has led me into radicalized alt right pipelines that fill my brain and I don’t even know what is real anymore, I am so socially isolated walking down the street I feel as though there is a glass wall between me and society.

I am in law school and failing. I just hope to pass my classes this semester and haven’t even done all I am supposed to. My career services department is mad. My teacher pulled me aside and said he is worried about me. I have gotten to the point of sucidal ideation. I know I should stop and take a break but I can’t so please don’t suggest that unless you tell me how. I have been to therapy have been given medication but I hated it.

I have turned to communities like the incels and frequent there forums. I have turned to nick Fuentes which mildly helped. He is the reason I am in law school ( I know pathetic). I would stop giving him money. I would stop the incel shit just to have a normal life.

it makes me cry when I realize years have gone by and I don’t gain any new life experiences or hit any milestones that most People my age should be hitting. I want friends. I want a instagram full of pictures with others. I want to not go straight home after school because I have people to hangout with. I want to finally touch a women. I want her hands in my hair and to seat across from her make eye contact and just laugh.

I am in a top law school, even with all the money I spent I have 88k in the bank. I am in NYC the coolest place in the world. I go to class with the coolest people. Yet everyday, I go to school tired and hungry, i go to class. I wait between class an d jerk off in the toilet at the library. I scroll findom and send money then feel lonely and maybe bait a domme with a post to talk to me. I pay random girls on insta to tell them how I want to kms. Then I hit my second class and gamble penny stocks instead of taking notes. Then after when everyone goes to the library, works on there resume, seeks job listings in the new mamdani administration or top law firms In sky scrapers looking at the city I go home. I go to my room and send more.

I can’t keep doing this. I don’t know what to do. Please I am just asking for advice.